all my life i have been told i should be a music/worship pastor. i have, until recently, bought into that idea, seeking the approval of man. then, around the week of April 9, 2007, GOD really began to move me into another direction; a direction i had never thought could be for me. i had heard Fred Markert, the International Director of YWAM Strategic Frontiers, speak on foreign missions, and GOD had started dealing with me; but it wasn't until Craig Kuehn, director of Calvary International, spoke at our school that i realized that i have been called to the nations.
this step is going to be a step of faith because no one in my family has ever been on the mission field. i have never really been involved with a missionary except on a monetary level. i am anxious to go through the process. i pray for HIS guidance in every aspect of my life. stay tuned for more updates and pray for me. i need it. GOD bless.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
my heart 1
i don't know how to explain what emotion run through me. I guess it is a good thing i learned not to depend on emotions. All they do is cloud your mind and interfere with your judgement. Believe me, i know. But still it seems like i should feel differently. I sometimes feel like i am not doing enough to advance the kingdom but if i think about doing more, i get overwhelmed. I know my GOD is bigger than any problem in my 'life'.
LORD, i pray that YOU would remove my unbelief. i do believe in YOU and i am asking for YOUR help to believe more. i know YOU have chosen me and called me to a specific ministry and i ask for YOUR guidance and help in my living in YOUR will. i bless YOU, LORD. i will not bend my knee to another and my unbelief stops here! YOU are KING of my life and all i am is YOUR'S. there is nothing on earth that can separate YOU from me and i am so thankful for YOUR grace. God, today i may stumble, but YOU never leave me. i am not alone. even when i feel like giving up, YOU are there guiding me, loving me, holding me. i can never pay the debts that i owe but, LORD, forever i will praise YOUR name. looking back, i can see the times YOUR hand was upon me and how YOU protected me from harm and the times i scraped my knee, YOU always lifted me up and gave me an encouraging word. oh how i long to know YOU more, to know the heart of my FATHER; to know the intimate places where i can lay in YOUR lap and know that i am YOURS. it is these intimate time i can look back upon and yearn for when i am walking against the wind and the rain is beating down on me. the storms of life are coming and i am ready because of YOUR strength. it is made perfect in my weakness. LORD, i am weak. i am not able to accomplish any good apart from YOU, so i ask for YOU to always carry me and live in me by the power of the HOLY SPIRIT. lead me in YOUR ways and all mine, i will acknowledge YOU. the Bible says if i do this, YOU will make the path straight. right now i ask for YOUR forgiveness, for the sins of my past, the sins of unfaithfulness, of disobedience, and disloyalty. i tried to please myself before others and foremost, before YOU. But GOD, YOU are working on me still. YOU have not done so in vain. i will win nation for YOUR name. i love YOU and thank YOU for YOUR love. YOU search me and YOU know me. in YOUR name, amen.
Psalm 139:23-24(NLT): "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life."
LORD, i pray that YOU would remove my unbelief. i do believe in YOU and i am asking for YOUR help to believe more. i know YOU have chosen me and called me to a specific ministry and i ask for YOUR guidance and help in my living in YOUR will. i bless YOU, LORD. i will not bend my knee to another and my unbelief stops here! YOU are KING of my life and all i am is YOUR'S. there is nothing on earth that can separate YOU from me and i am so thankful for YOUR grace. God, today i may stumble, but YOU never leave me. i am not alone. even when i feel like giving up, YOU are there guiding me, loving me, holding me. i can never pay the debts that i owe but, LORD, forever i will praise YOUR name. looking back, i can see the times YOUR hand was upon me and how YOU protected me from harm and the times i scraped my knee, YOU always lifted me up and gave me an encouraging word. oh how i long to know YOU more, to know the heart of my FATHER; to know the intimate places where i can lay in YOUR lap and know that i am YOURS. it is these intimate time i can look back upon and yearn for when i am walking against the wind and the rain is beating down on me. the storms of life are coming and i am ready because of YOUR strength. it is made perfect in my weakness. LORD, i am weak. i am not able to accomplish any good apart from YOU, so i ask for YOU to always carry me and live in me by the power of the HOLY SPIRIT. lead me in YOUR ways and all mine, i will acknowledge YOU. the Bible says if i do this, YOU will make the path straight. right now i ask for YOUR forgiveness, for the sins of my past, the sins of unfaithfulness, of disobedience, and disloyalty. i tried to please myself before others and foremost, before YOU. But GOD, YOU are working on me still. YOU have not done so in vain. i will win nation for YOUR name. i love YOU and thank YOU for YOUR love. YOU search me and YOU know me. in YOUR name, amen.
Psalm 139:23-24(NLT): "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life."
Monday, June 18, 2007
where have i been?
it has been quite a while since last posting a blog and i would like to take this moment to apologize to my reader(s?)
Now it is time to catch you up to speed. i am working at Missionette's Camp at Springville Camp and Conference Center. I have been working at the Alabama District of the Assemblies of God's, Christian Education Department's children's summer camp for the past month. it has been very stressful and tiring. I was the staff director, in charge of 12 staff members. I don't want to brag but, that's pretty big stuff. Seriously, this was my last year as the director because i am a student at Christ for the Nations Institute in Dallas, TX, and we are required to take one summer credit and i chose to take it next year. Camp has been a great experience for me. I have met so many friends with whom i share a plethora of memories. Most are amazing, some not so great.
Now it is time to catch you up to speed. i am working at Missionette's Camp at Springville Camp and Conference Center. I have been working at the Alabama District of the Assemblies of God's, Christian Education Department's children's summer camp for the past month. it has been very stressful and tiring. I was the staff director, in charge of 12 staff members. I don't want to brag but, that's pretty big stuff. Seriously, this was my last year as the director because i am a student at Christ for the Nations Institute in Dallas, TX, and we are required to take one summer credit and i chose to take it next year. Camp has been a great experience for me. I have met so many friends with whom i share a plethora of memories. Most are amazing, some not so great.
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